Obedience, Before Peace

37 days in. I have to start this post by saying that none of this effort could’ve been done without my Lord and savior Jesus Christ. His strength had allowed me to go past my limits and He has not failed me thus far; He never will. The hardest part of this journey has been developing a stronger level of self control. You start to notice all the ways pornography, and lust as a whole, clouds your mind when that fog slowly starts to clear. For me, I realized how much lack of self control I had in many aspects of my life, including my diet, my relationship with my girlfriend, school, work, and my faith. One of the most rewarding aspects of this journey has been the grace and perspective shift i’ve had on these parts of my life. I will not sit here and lie to everyone and say thats its easy, all of us know this struggle by heart. It will be difficult for most and it will take a lot of trial and error, but allow yourself grace, as the Lord does. This does not mean abuse the forgiveness of the Lord and to sit in comfortability of constantly relapsing and saying its ok; allow yourself to go into an environment of prayer and truly ask for forgiveness. You will feel the weight of guilt lift off; this will set your heart at peace and allow you to view your day with more clarity that is set on the Lord. I’m constantly praying for all those fighting the good fight. Always remember your reason for wanting to beat this. The fact you’re reading this and on this app is enough proof that you want change.