I can’t do it

I feel really bad. I did it because I’m sad, I’m depressed. A lot of things have been going on since I download the app. If I downloaded it sooner I might have been able to fix myself faster or at least be in a better state than I am in now. If this whole situation didn’t happen I prolly would be like 2 weeks clean, but because I’m depressed and sad I’m 0 days clean. It sucks I feel like I’m done with it all.