No fap?
We all agree porn is bad. Re wires the brain. I’m not arguing that. My thing is, I’m very stressed out with a job I hate making little $$ (I’m finding a new job but it’s a process). A wife who doesn’t work (mutual decision for the children). Who hates me because of the porn. So I ain’t getting laid. And I can’t even talk about my feelings about anything. Because that’s like lighting the fuse to another fight. Why can’t I just use my imagination and rub 1 out every couple of days just to keep my sanity? I don’t get any relief from the pain or stress in any other way.
You’re stunting your masculinity and creating a wider divide between you and your wife. All the problems you’re facing, PMO will make it worse. Don’t listen to the intrusive thoughts brother! And don’t try to talk to your wife about this, it’s going to make it worse. Find a brotherhood you can fit in and you relay your problems and emotions to your brothers. I suggest looking into the Saint Paisios Brotherhood for that.