Week 4 -Feeling Alive Again

Last week I hit the flat tier—felt like crap. But today I want to touch something deeper. Most of us used porn because we thought we were hypersexual or some BS like that—especially when we were younger. But when you really go through life and dig deeper, you realize the problem isn’t sex. It’s your emotions. It’s the fact that you don’t know how to deal with them. It’s your behavior and the way you think. In my case, I used porn in every situation: Happy. Sad. Stressed. Afraid. Feeling like a loser. Even feeling successful. With time, I understood that the root of the problem is my thinking and behavior. That’s what leads to addiction. And if I can fix that, I’ll be unshakable. That’s why most people who truly recover from addiction become high performers. They hit rock bottom, then rise smiling—because once you’ve faced the darkest part of yourself and refused to run, nothing can break you anymore. It’s been 2 years for me, way before I joined this community. I’ve been fighting—not just addiction—but building my character. Even when I slipped, I got the f*** back on the horse. Is it hard? YES. But I was eating clean. Training like an animal. Working hard. Stacking cash. Trying to fix my mindset and behavior. And I’m 35—not some young kid. Don’t leave the ground empty for the devil. Work on yourself. Even if you relapse, attack another area of your life. Don’t get stuck like, “Oh I’m using porn, I need to get clean first ohhhh poor me " Clean or not—level the f* up.** And I promise every one of you—with every godman cell in my DNA—we’re gonna make it. We are the backbone of society. Yes, we’ve all done shameful things. We’ve hurt people we loved. We’ve burned our lives to the ground—like I did. But at least we’re fighting. At least we’re trying. Don’t be afraid. God is with you. Go win.