Day 6

I don’t remember I don’t know if it was a dream or something but I feel like i relapsed yesterday but looking back i didn’t. Is it bad if I relapse in my dream? I feel very numb now the girl that brought me closer to God now has her cat euthanized. She won’t talk to me so now I guess I’m here looking for the advice she would give me or just for someone to let me know that this pain will end. I’m open now for God. I’m gonna start reading the bible more because i feel the Lord has a plan for me. Thank you Lord Jesus Christ.