Urges

Sometimes when I get urges of temptation to watch a video which is usually late a night: - I think about the feeling of victory I get when I wake up in the morning and realize that I didn’t relapse (literally the best feeling ) - I also think about the feeling of defeat I get when I realize I relapsed during the night (which is almost the worst feeling because I feel so much shame and guilt and realize I’m back at 0.) I just think about the victory feeling and focus on looking forward to feeling good about my decision not to relapse. Remember though we’re human! So if you end up relapsing just focus on doing better and going longer the next time :)