I’m so close to failing

I don’t want to masturbate but I really want to masturbate. It’s such a weird feeling that’s impossible to relate to unless you’ve felt it before. I’m 11 days in and starting to convince myself it’s fine if I masturbate with no porn, but I know my goal is to not fap at all. I’ll tell myself it doesn’t mean anything and doing it once is fine, but then I’ll snap myself out of it and do smth else. The urge has been really strong today though, and keeps coming back. I’ll find something to distract myself. Good luck today guys, just remember to take it one day at a time.