At my breaking point
Day 1
by Welmer Villanueva
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I just missed a deadline for an important application, and I just had a huge mental breakdown over it. I can always apply the next time around, but what I’m breaking down about is just how intrusive my porn addiction has been in every aspect of my life. I would have had that thing done way in advance if I didn’t dedicate so much time to cheap dopamine and false fulfillment. I feel like a horrible person, I can’t keep letting myself live this way. Something needs to change, but I keep saying that and I can’t stay consistent.
I had similar instances you are not alone - I’ve managed to get my first week straight and it’s mostly because anytime I wanted to I forced myself to get up and walk around, a different room or a walk around the block. No matter where it gave me a second to think about what I was going to do and I’ve managed to get to day 8 with that going strong. The app Clearspace is a big help too for locking up my apps and forcing me to take a deep breath and reflect before engaging potential content triggers!