Strange Feelings
Day 2
by Colin
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recently (as in about 20 minutes ago) i finished getting intimate with a girl i’ve been seeing and i was hit with the same feeling of regret and disgust that i get when i relapse. i don’t wanna be disgusted every time i do the deed. i found myself wanting to get as far away from her as possible and crawl into a hole and die after we finished, much like i do when i relapse. is this normal in the beginning? does my brain need time to rewire itself from the effects of porn? i’ve been watching it for a very long time so i figured it was just my brain associating a climax with porn, and then remembering that porn = bad, ergo climax = bad. any advice is appreciated! questions will be answered if anyone has any. thanks in advance!
Not sure if its a porn thing, maybe just you dont like the girl and feel bad you hsed her for sex? Maybe find a girl you like and have a connection with? Im not sure. Ive personally found if i have even the slightest relationship with them i feel fine, complete transactional sex, i feel bad the next day. Not immediately after though. Never felt that or maybe i did and forgot it idk