Day 0 🚗

It’s tough starting over. It feels like shit. You never remember how much it felt like shit when you get that itch though. You know you can never truly kill the green monster, but after 10, 15, 30 days…he gets really quiet and you forget about him. You forget how powerful he can get, then BAM you find yourself on fucking Twitter or Reddit. I don’t want to be like this anymore. I liked who I was at 23 days clean…I liked who I was when I didn’t need porn to be happy. Sure sometimes life got a little boring and I didn’t feel like I had much going on or to look forward to, but the fact that before all I had to look forward to was porn made me sick. I don’t want to be here again. I know that after a while I can stop counting the days and instead make the days count, but for now this is my life. I won’t see 0 again unless there’s a number in front of it. Fuck the zero.