Sick of failing

I try and I try and I try. I think I’ve come a long way and sometimes my mind track is that I’m done and I know how to do this and then I get one moment and poof. I really need to get my shit together. I’m losing any chance I have at the life that I want. It’s one thing to hurt someone, but it’s one thing to hurt them over and over and have them start believing that they aren’t worth it. That’s what hurts more than anything. All the damn pain I’ve caused.