I'm here because my brain doesn't see the problem.

You are not alone

Hey Max, thank you so much for sharing. I feel the exact same way. Our brain has been so numb to this addiction that we need smtg more extreme everytime we go back to it. I remember the first time reading porn, I told myself I'll never get back into it, same goes to the rest of us here. Then when i started reading porn comics everyday, but I told myself I wouldn't look at gay or lesbian porn, but eventually I got into it as well. Then i told myself I'll only look at drawn porn but never real life porn but eventually i gave in too. Until one night at 3 am, i was masturbating, i accidentally came across child porn. It traumatized me so much that night i couldnt sleep that night and felt so scared and anxious the next few days I stopped masturbating. But that was enough of a wake up call to me. Bc just like you, i too question myself when will it be my turn? I always said ill stop n won't cross certain line but i always end up doing it. The thought of becoming a pedophile or hurting people in real life, i rather kms than let that happen. But i guess that shows theres still a sane part of me. It was fine hurting myself until I realized that it can hurt people too. This is one of my biggest reason for wanting to stop this addiction and i hope my story will encourage you to do the same in some way. Or at the very least, i hope you know that you're not in this alone. Let's overcome this together 🤝