Came clean to my partner

She is understandably devastated and upset. I’ve made a resolve to tell her everything but I drip fed it. Part of felt that if I could just scratch the surface I could limit the damage, limit the shame and limit my accountability. It’s taken almost a whole week to tell her the absolute truth. The recounting took over an hour but I laid everything bare. She has asked so many questions, for details, timings, frequencies, what my mindset was. Because I drip fed her she thinks I’m lying about the last time I I cheated on her at a happy ending massage. She thinks I had sex when I didn’t. I left that world behind just before I met her. I told her a little about my past but couldn’t bring myself to share everything. Just the headlines as I reasoned it can’t get worse than that. The trouble is I ever gave up porn and it’s taken me back into questionable decisions and seedy places. She is the love of my life and I’ve betrayed her trust. In our exchanges she’s told me about all her experiences in a bid for full disclosure. It was hard to hear but I equally didn’t want her to stop. I feel Like I’m going to break my streak this weekend. Please help me