67 Days - The reality of now
At 50 or 60 days or something i shared a post of a lot of the downsides and realities of quitting and how shit it can make you feel. 75% of the way there and i’m happy to report things have improved, libido and desire is still low but noticeably higher than before. Sex life has returned with my partner with a new confidence that was not present in the previous weeks at all, there’s no fear of failure anymore. Outside of her though libido is still incredibly low. Energy and self esteem have levelled off and are sitting comfortably in the 5-6 range most days with comfortable numbers above that, no more depression rare that i get anything below a 4 in either category, life been pretty enjoyable as of late. Biggest piece of advice i can give right now is to quit / limit social media, porn associating dopamine with your phone+laptop translates to the dopamine you get from social media too. It has made recovery a lot faster and effective to me. End is on the horizon!! confident i’ll never return to porn :) goodluck every1!!
Thank you for sharing your journey, I recently relapsed after 40ish days and it was hard for me to recognize that I couldn’t just expect to be done with something I’ve struggled with for close to 20 years without some failure. I agree with what you’ve said about the dopamine from phone/laptop it’s such an insidious trap so everyone reading this take note! So proud of you and your accomplishments, you should feel like a rockstar!