Moment of realization

It’s 1:30am had a good long day of work today about to head to sleep. Getting tempted bad right now to watch porn and I just had a moment of realization to share and i hope it helps someone. I’m about 40 days free right now and if I was to watch it tonight, it would affect me for sure I would feel off for the morning. Might feel a little insecure and guilty for a day. But then everything would be back to normal. My life wouldn’t be drastically different. I would go about my day the same as if I didn’t watch it tonight. I made the decision to not watch. But not because I believe it will give me superpowers or drastically change my life and help me reach all my goals instantly. I won’t watch because I have enough love and respect for myself to not do it knowing it’s wrong. In a world where we are getting bombarded with drastic and dramatic news about how porn is killing us(it is), about how staying clean for 7 days will give us powers and change our lives completely, we tend to get caught into thinking that everything is life or death. If we relapse it’s the end of the world and if we stay clean we conquered the world. Truth is there is infinitely much more to the lives God has given us than our struggle with porn. While it does slowly ruin our lives and while abstaining does change our lives for the better drastically, it won’t change much 1 time. So dont resist the urge because it’ll kill you. Resist because you know it’s not right, and it is in these constant moments that we are able to build new habits and patterns of thinking. Life is bigger than our struggles with this addiction. And there is much more in our lives that we have to do than overcoming this. So while it is 100% valuable to abstain from porn, let’s put our focus on doing the things we need to do, and not on not giving in. I hope this encouraged someone. Don’t resist because it will kill you if you do it once, resist because you love yourself enough to not do it simply because it’s horrible for you.