Relapse L

I can’t begin to express how disappointed I am at the fact that I broke again. My longest streak was about 15 days. This most recent was about to be 6. I’m shooting for small goals. By next Saturday i will be writing my one week win cause I’m not losing this time around. I’m sick of this sexual desire being attached to me. I don’t need it. I don’t want it. & I’m ready to change my life. I don’t want to slip again. Tonight didn’t even make me feel good. No satisfaction through my nut & nothing but post nut disappointment. To me that is a sign it’s 1000% time to move on. Give it up & allow this shitty feeling to be put in the past for good. Mad I have to start over but my choices led me here. I have to achieve this so that I can grow closer to Christ & I can just have a reason to be truly proud of myself. BIG WIN COMING!