Day 9, had a hard time with my feelings today

Today was something different, it didn’t feel like the other days, i felt bad, so bad and it wasn’t related to any cravings , it just happened and my mind kept playing theses old memories, analyzing and creating judgments about myself and my past, problems i thought i left behind, i just couldn’t stop myself from feeling awful, so i decided to just sleep and hope I’ll wake up feeling better cuz i knew if didn’t i would’ve probably relapsed or did some funny thing that I’m gonna regret later. I think it happened cuz of the huge lack of sleep, its the finals and I’ve been studying nonstop so i guess i have to endure this until its all over so that i can be back to my sleep schedule. I have so many great plans for this summer, all i need is to keep pushing.. no porn/no fap.. for the rest of my life.