DAMN MAN

i relapsed like 7 times this week, 3 of them today holy shit, i was doing so good the first couple days of this week and then boom i didn’t even think, i just did. This was like almost traumatic man i feel so horrible but now more than ever i feel even more compelled to stop, and even more disgusted and just straight up over porn. I’m seeing my girlfriend in a little less than 2 months and i don’t even wanna have a thought of porn when i finally get to hold her again (i was moved out of my home town by the military, currently training but i graduate and get nearly 2 weeks of vacation in a couple months). this entire experience has changed my life for the better but i can’t shake porn and that’s my one regret, my one vice. I can say without a doubt that the military has made me the best version of myself that i’ve ever been but i still can’t stop masterbating and it’s making this that much harder, and that much less beneficial. i NEED to stop, i don’t just crave it, but for my own future, and mental health, i need to stop.