Just relapsed and wasted 130$ dollars on videos

I feel so stupid and upset with myself because I know it was foolish to spend so much money, I joined this app about a two weeks ago because I want to overcome this addiction I went on a max 3 days streak and relapsed ever since. I eventually got to the point I gave in to my urges to purchase content to help stimulate me. Though it hurts that I spent so much I will not give up this is a lesson I pray will keep and remind me not to turn back. The only productive action is to move forward and not backwards.