25 days the worst fight of my life

I’ve made it 25 days into this and I’ve noticed my self become so much better through the experience but right now I am having the worst possible experience yet I’m fighting and fighting and they just keep coming back the temptations everything is making me want to give up and give in. I almost did when I used to do my thing I would spend a lot of time on hookup apps trying to get a hookup with a guy or anything really and I caved. I downloaded the app and I was about to meet up with a guy I was trying to convince my self it wasn’t the same as porn because someone else would be relieving me but at the end it was much worse then giving into porn I’ve just deleted the app and came on here to click the panic button. I haven’t “relieved” my self yet but I have gotten damn close to it. I’ve noticed while writing this that the temptation has somewhat dwindled so I’m still gonna fight but what are you’re guys thoughts on this. I appreciate all of those who stuck around and read till this point. You are loved and don’t need the delusion of what you think is love from porn to be happy you can do this you are strong. In a way I’m talking to my self here too good luck everyone and I promise to all of you I won’t fail!