Lustful toxic brain taking over

I went 23 days and then relapsed. Currently hitting day 10 today and this time around is much more difficult to get back to my confidence self. Those 23 days I felt like another human being. This second streak are my lustful thoughts absolutely taking over my personality. I view women as sex objects to just fuck them, no emotions, then ditch them. It’s so toxic. Porn has created this in my brain. And this other day, I went to go fuck this girl with absolutely no strings attached. I feel like shit because I deep down want a meaningful relationship. I’m literally acting like it never happened and haven’t responded to her. No more lustful thoughts taking over. Because when I’m myself, all I want is to care for another woman that I can build an emotional relationship. Dig deep