Recent realisation on my addiction

This is my story… I was exposed at the age of 12 to porn for the first time by my best friend. I didn’t understand the concept of what it was and had never seen a naked woman before. My interest quickly took control over my life where I started watching it casually every so often. I was 15 the first time I understood what my body could do, and honestly it was the single best feeling I’ve ever had. Since that day I had been actively watching porn perhaps 1-2 times a week. Fast forward to the age of 24, where I was actively seeking to look at porn and play with myself 2-3 times a day. Looking at webcam models and onlyfans girl. I was with a girl for the last four years and honestly our relationship was on and off. Recently we had broken up, and the addiction got worse, my fantasies got worse. When we finally started speaking after a short break, I kept all the things that I had done whilst not together (sexually experience with other people) to myself because of the shame, and not wanting to hurt her. Last Sunday after sorting our problems, she was on my phone where she had found an app for threesomes that I had downloaded when we were still in our relationship. I didn’t even remember downloading the apps which is the worse part. It was then I told her I think I had an addiction to porn. We haven’t spoken since last week, and perhaps that has benefitted me to enable myself to have time for self improvement. One thing that I do know, is that porn is evil, porn has ruined the relationship with the one person I love, porn has created fake fantasies in my mind on what I want to do, has made me objectify women for the last 11 years, reduced my self-esteem, and I’ve lost so much time from porn. I’m writing this to keep myself accountable for my addiction. My addiction does not control my future. I control my future.