Day 5 Complete

Today as the hardest day, it’s not even 9pm so the day isn’t finished but it’s “been” 5 days I’ve stopped at thirst traps way too long, I’ve looked at a nude I had. But I didn’t do anything physical and I turned myself away within 30 seconds each time. I feel like I’ve failed myself because I actioned towards the path, I took the initial steps down willingly and by my own hands. But I managed to steer the river of dopamine which typically flows one way, a river that’s been flowing for 10 years This wasn’t meant to be easy, any steering or avoidance impulse being followed is a GOOD THING. Yes it shouldn’t have even started flowing, but you can’t control impulse, that gets affected over a long period of time, but you CAN control what you do with that impulse. Thats why addictions are so hard to break at the start but get easier with time. You’re steering a river