My time under
Day 48
by Milton
133 upvotes
I was exposed at the ripe age of 11 at a scouting event, it’s been a huge problem I’ve been trying to stop for years, my longest hiatus has been about a year, but I had one slip and boom back to square one, this was 5 years ago, I worked a night security job and my depression was so bad I almost offed myself, then i started getting fit again, and then I met my girlfriend. I still struggle to this day I’m actually righting this after almost hitting the panic button. I’m extremely self deprecating which was pointed out to by my girlfriend. Anyways it’s really hard to talk to her about this because even though she knows about it. I’m embarrassed to no end, needed to get this off my chest, if anyone hase advice I’m open to it.
Hi Milton, I get it. I can also get extremely depressed and have had suicidal thoughts in the past. I also have a girlfriend who knows about my addiction and bringing it up and being honest with her can be extremely hard, but nothing beats being honest and having those vulnerable conversations that we are taught to keep suppressed as men. I don’t know much about y’all’s dating history, but I’d encourage you to be honest with her when you start feeling down or need help. I’ll be praying for you man. Best, Eli