Rough Day

Nearly a month into this thing and I’ve had it pretty easy for the most part. However, over the last few days I’ve found myself drifting off into lustful thoughts too often, and allowing myself to linger in them too long. And well, today I had my strongest urge I’ve faced since I downloaded Quittr. In the past, when I’ve had an urge there would be this pit in my stomach along with the knowledge that I WAS going to give in at my next opportunity. That’s what I felt today, and it scared me. Well, right now is what would be my next opportunity, but instead of entertaining such thoughts, I figured I’d write out how I was feeling and you know what, it’s helped. Still, I’d appreciate your prayers. Not just for tonight, but that I would get out of whatever plateau I’m in. My ultimate goal is to be free. I don’t want to live in fear that if I accidentally see the wrong picture, it will awaken some deep dark desire in me. I want to be free of all of it, and my next step is getting out of this little rut and getting my head back in the game.