2 Days.

I just really want you to understand you are not an evil person. You are not a sinner for this even though what you hear and what you see will tell you. Otherwise, you are not. You are perfectly normal.

The addiction would be like me where I literally get triggers to masturbate if I'm not careful and will literally spend days just in a cave of my own doing of just going wild. I would like to get to where you are and just have one session a week or at least two times a week. I would be satisfied with just that progress. I understand you are a Christian man and this is hard because of our certain customs and our ways. We are led to believe that this is bad and this is evil. But this is just human. We are just humans. We are just living day by day. Unfortunately we have desires and that's okay. Clearly you love your soon to be wife. But if you want to quit p*** all together, just realize that you're doing this for her and not because you are evil. P*** is fine if consumed healthily. Masturbating is fine it's nature and who we are and are facts of life. Otherwise these problems would have never existed.

I could never tell her.

Listen you are not the devil! you are not evil! You are a human being and more specifically a male, a man. I'm sorry to break it to you but you are normal. Watching p*** if done Healthily is not a problem. From the looks of it, you are not an addict. If you're just watching it once a week or once or twice a month, it's not an issue or an addiction. This is perfectly normal. You are perfectly fine. You are not evil. I need to emphasize and stress this that you are not a sinner or a evil person.