I hate this

Day 0

by Robert

March 26, 2025 at 08:24 PM

7 upvotes

I don’t know why I keep falling. I was doing great. I had gone almost two weeks without it and relapsed. I tried again and got almost 3 weeks; then relapsed. I’ve tried and tried and I just keep relapsing. This time the time in between keeps getting shorter. I only abstained about almost 11 days this time and relapsed about 10 minutes ago. I’m tired of jt. I’m a married man and don’t want to be chained to this. It’s not fair to her. She deserves so much better than who I am and what I give her and doesn’t deserve to have a husband who gets off to other women on a screen. I just wish I could stop it completely and wake up one day not falling to porn because of boredom or stress or whatever.

Comments (4)

Robert •145d ago

The triggers just randomly happen. I mean, I’ll be good all day but then just out of nowhere, something will pop in my head whether it’s boredom or stress or seeing something online or tv and I’ll just go into that state of mind. What sucks is that I kinda know in my mind it’s gonna happen and then I try to talk to that inner voice In my head to not follow through with it and then I end up falling

Robert •145d ago

Yes, she does know I’m going through this. She is supportive and tells me she knows that it’s addictive and says she knows I’ll overcome this but still, it’s disheartening. Plus I don’t want to hurt her every time it happens and break her heart after a relapse.

Codey•145d ago

Do you know your exact triggers? For example being alone in bed after a stressful day? And to follow up, are there any ways you can plan to counteract those triggers? For example rather than going to bed early when temptations are highest, you can do some exercise and when you do get into bed, remove your phone from your reach

Nathaniel•145d ago

Does she know your going through this?

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