Time to wake up

I’ve been lying to myself for a couple weeks. Saying that it’s just flashes (flashtok). I need to be better and wake up from the lie. I am going to start using my phone for communication only. And not doom scroll when I am bored. And when I do get bored find something to keep myself busy. And finally start growing closer to God. I’m doing this for both my relationship with God and with my fiancé. God bless.