I failed again. I’m 19. This is my first time writing one of these. A few months ago my girlfriend realized I had a problem, I didn’t even really realize it was a problem but it became clear how this has been holding me back since I was 13. She was so hurt. I never looked at porn again. But I still masturbated often and used it as a way to cope, being on long distance with her makes it so much more difficult. I’ve been trying to fight it. This last week she’s been crying everyday about insecurities she has now and it’s my fault. At the same time she started crying, I started looking at soft porn again, I guess the guilt has been making things worse, I’m so broken by this. I’ve been trying new things to overcome this, and I’m gonna try to write one of these everyday cuz it might help me. All I tell myself is that I will never give up