Back to my vomit

I binged twice, I felt sick. Went back to my lowest lows, I am going to see my girlfriend tomorrow and talk over dinner. Honestly I feel like calling off the date, I feel so ashamed and disgusted. I desire intimacy; I only see my gf once a week due to our busy schedules but this is something I need to figure out on my own. She texted me “Are you ok” I guedd from our messages she sensed something was off