Have grace with yourself

A big realization for me is that I have dealt with this problem for over half of my life (14-28). Understanding how long that time period is makes sense as to why this is so difficult and why relapse happens. You are unlearning a pattern of your life. How long would it take if you had to learn to talk again? To walk? Be patient with yourself, but continue to take steps forward. Eliminate your access, have brothers you can be accountable to, and pray for God to fight the batte for you.