I just did something horrible…
In this post I’m going to be open and honest about what just happened. So I was watching porn all last night from 11pm till about 2am and was scrolling and scrolling. From then I ended up on an escort/paid sex website where I made arrangements to meet up with someone and have sex with them. I used my uncles money $80 to have sex with a Mexican girl for 30 minutes. I went to the place and had sex with her this is at around 12-1pm (less then 20 minutes from this post) and got hit with the biggest post nut clarity I’ve ever had in my life… I sat in the part for a solid 30 minutes questioning my life choices and my purpose as well as my existence. I’m being open and honest about what happened and what led up to this which was porn. I’ve been stuck in this look of watching porn for the last 2-3week and I hate it. Yet I always find myself on the web again at somepoint. Please if you have any advice,recommendations, motivation or inspirations to help me switch my mindset and my view on this all I would greatly appreciate it. I am an example of what porn can lead too and when the extreme use of porn just isn’t enough, it reaches into your wallet or a family members trust…
Hey Yugi. I’m also a case where the addiction progressed to escorts. The crash after is harrowing, every time. It was concealed insanity, and damn near drove me to open insanity. If you aren’t already in one, you may benefit from an IRL S-Program. And get yourself busy on something that’s both wholesome and cool. Idleness is like kerosene for this addiction, which in its newly reached form promises “adventure” and a “rush,” neither of which lasts.