Close to relapse
Been getting horny again and started jacking off by touch and imagination alone, but I find myself unable to calm my urges down. I remember why I started watching porn in the first place, it kept me from making a fool of myself around women, it kept me from being driven solely by my desires, rather than my mind and heart. Maybe I’m old enough to handle it now, but I won’t lie and say I’m not worried about losing this battle.
Keeping yourself extremely busy is the best way. Also get out of the house and be in public more so you don’t even have an opportunity to mess up