I’ve woken up

Just relapsed. But not angry, I’m happy. The past 16 day streak I was getting worse and worse, day by day I’d come across insta reels of half naked women and go to their X page where they would likely show soft porn and sometimes even come across hard porn. Now as it was only X, I tricked my brain into thinking it’s not a relapse, it’s fine you’re not actually watching porn, you’re skipping past it (but in reality I was staying on their page). I have also been talking to some girls that do NOT embody any of my requirements for my future wife and been making arrangements to hookup with them. So this morning I talked to God and came to the conclusion that I needed to get that post nut clarity and humble myself as I’ve not ACTUALLY been 16 days without porn. So I had a wank to nothing, and it hit me like a tonne of bricks. I apologised to the girls I’ve been talking to, I’ve blocked them and deleted apps like twitter and adding more site blocks from this app as we speak. I am also going to be picking up my bible and reading the word as without Jesus, no one can overcome lust. I have prayed for myself and all you soldiers on this app to overcome lust and find true fulfilment in life. Don’t make shortcuts! If you relapse you relapse, own it and move forward! GOOD LUCK LADS 💪