Mental battles

35 days going strong 5 more days till I pass my old milestone.. this whole journey so far has been pain I been at war with myself about family issues regarding my bm we broke up and it's been a nasty couple months finally leading up to this moment figured out she's out being fast.. and it's been fucking with me emotionally and mentally cause I gave this girl everything. These 35 days I been tied with her emotionally and psychically so I feel like I haven't been getting benefits because I been so caught up on her and not really putting the time I should into myself. I almost slipped today I thought to myself is any of this worth it. And I want to say it is even though u don't feel it yet. Do it even if u don't feel like it. Do it for yourself. Retention is the first step to fuel you but the work never stops I realized I can't keep going on like this begging and clinging onto someone who doesn't love or care for me any longer. Hopefully this can help someone who's going through a breakup or something similar god bless