Why do you start?

This isn’t easy, I’ve been tempted and having wet dreams. I can still resist because God has already broken the chains of list and pornography, that doesn’t mean I don’t get tempted because Lucifer is crafty and strategic. It’s easy to just give in which destroys the point of trying to quit. I realized porn is weak and it made me weak, addicted, lazy, undisciplined, unmotivated, and highly perverted. I hate perverted men and I hate being one myself, making every small interaction into some weird sexual harem, or always wanting to touch myself at any urge. I wanted to quit because I wanted my natural energy and masculinity back. I felt weak and my body didnt function properly as I felt it should, masturbation isn’t “normal” thats a deception this world has normalized and it’s weird. If masturbating was normal then why do you feel like crap, lesser than, or demoralized after you do it? Anything normal will feel good and produce the same effect a positive effect and energy. Getting off to a man having sex with a woman you will never lay down with let alone talk to is cowardly and demoralizing as a man. I’m supposed to take charge, lead, protect, and provide. If all I think about is sex or porn I’m no better than a pig that rolls around in his own muddy feces. Grow up, man up, choose God because this world and its norms are disgusting and if you have any masculinity in you (not that red pill crap) you’d understand the depth of self control and the positive impact it brings you and the impact it gives off. I don’t want to raise children in a world where men happily lust over them.