I relapsed 😔

I hate myself. I've been doing this for years. I'm older than most of you. I've tried to stop so many times, and here I am again with another attempt as I get closer and closer to death. I gradually started looking and I recognized that. I even made a deal with myself "If you stop now, I'll let you continue yourn streak", but I kept going. So here I am pressing the refresh button. 5 days is pretty good for me. Let's see if I can kick that five days in the face and keep going this time!