Change of mind & change of heart
Today, I am 123 days free from pornography and masturbation. Temptation has not disappeared. But, as I continue to grow closer to God, my reaction to that temptation has radically changed. Tonight, I found myself sharing the gospel with someone who has an onlyfans in their Instagram bio. I wanted to be bitter and angry towards them. I wanted to do publicly shame them so they could sit with the shame I’ve endured with this being an addiction that I’ve suffered from for over 15 years. But, something - or Someone - prompted me to lift that person up. To tell them that they are worthy and valuable, and that they don’t need to stay in that place of depravity. It just goes to show that Recovery is possible, and that there is hope in Jesus Christ. With enough time and effort, you can and will recover. You will not be stuck here forever, and this will just be a part of your story to show how you can overcome such difficult circumstances.
Thank you - the things that have helped me have been reading scripture, attending Celebrate Recovery, therapy, accountability partners, & working on bettering myself like going to the gym. Wish you the best of luck, you can do it 💪