First relapse since downloading app
I downloaded this app because I was tired of failing to quit masterbating… I am so lustful and it’s been my way to cope with stress for so long. I used to never go more than few days and with the intention of quitting never more than a week. It’s easy to relapse when I’m in secret…. I really thought after getting this app it would be different I felt motivated and enjoyed seeing my timer climb… I made it to day 6 and all day I felt great, of all days this one was the easiest to fight. Then night fall came and a small thought triggered me and every thought I had to fight the urge I brushed past and ignored. I found myself moving to furthest part of the house to shower and finish to something ANYTHING… I feel so ashamed. I felt like I haven’t eaten in days and was literally starving sexually… sat there praying for Gods help, but once again let him down
Thanks! I’ve tried doing that but sadly thrill of getting caught turns it more into a challenge than a deterrent. Sucks because I know that hurts me and people I love the most, my fiancé sleeping next to me and I’d still get on the sites and finish without waking her….