What am I doing wrong?
Day 0
by Finn Murphy
22 upvotes
Every time I relapse, I usually am faced with 2 options beforehand. Option 1: watch the video, feel good for like 10 seconds and then want to jump in a hole and die. Option 2: close the video, regain self control of my urges and continue my streak. And I seem to keep on choosing option 1 when it matters most. What am I doing wrong? How do I get rid of this urge? Why am I continuing to fail?
Try to keep AS FAR AS POSSIBLE from watching that video or anything related to it (also insta/tiktok reels). Keep your mind busy, everytime you feel the urge of watching a video, go to the gym or go for a walk. You will find out the urge will come and go. I’m 11 days in now and if I get to choose option 1 or 2 now. I might take option 1 aswel. It is very very hard to close the video once you’ve opened it, because what you are watching will increase the urge like crazy. So try very hard to stay away from these triggers. God bless you my bro, stay strong.