13 days down update

It’s interesting how the human body works. I’ll get the urges but after 2 weeks I don’t have as much of a “want” for it as I did before. I don’t necessarily “want to” but I notice when my body recognizes a familiar environment and I get the urge to do it just because. Self awareness is a big part of accountability. The other morning I even tried to get myself in the mind state to masturbate just to see if it would excite me (and give me a reason to relapse) but also to test myself. I legit did not desire to do it, and I didn’t force the thought. I got up and went for a long walk, and when it hit me that I consciously made the choice not to masturbate instead of giving into the urge just because I was in the moment, it made me feel better. Much more confident to know that I can give that shit up for good. My advice to everyone: find a hobby. Something to take your mind off of it. Understand that you can’t run from it entirely, the world can’t account for your urges. You have to just find other things to do, replace one habit with another. Go to the gym, express yourself through art, go to church. Something. It’s not impossible, and we can all get thru this. As long as we take it day by day and remain accountable of self, it’ll all be okay.