Why do I keep relapsing?
Day 1
by Lucas Schild
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It’s become daily now. I hate myself so much and I feel I’m in pain. It’s as if it’s only getting worse. I’ve put on the filters and everything. But it feels like it’s not enough. Like I need a hard reset. I lost one of my closest friends and it’s only gotten worse. Sometimes I feel like I’m rotting away. Why can’t I run away from this? It’s gonna ruin me, so why do I go back?
What you need is silence. Find a place in nature, a big rock in the forest, a shore, a beach. Go there alone and empty your mind. Just breathe. Take the time to disconnect from your struggles and ignore them for the time of the exercise. With a clear mind, examinate what you loose from porn, and what you win from quitting it. Tell the world that's why you quit. But most importantly, remember this doesn't make you a quitter, this makes you a winner