Help me
I’m done. Don’t know how much longer I can do this. Keep breaking the addiction just to go back to it. It’s killing me. I hate this. I’m lonely. I love this girl and I can’t hide my feelings but I don’t think she feels the same. Just want to leave everyone and everything behind and start a new life. I can’t do this man. I need help. Seriously. I’m always the shoulder to cry on but I never get a shoulder in return. And maybe I don’t need one because I’m a man. But I’m a human being and I have feelings too. I’m not sure anybody truly cares about me or if I’m just another person in their life. I don’t even get urges anymore I just do it for comfort. I know how fucking terrible this addiction is but it still holds me down. Everything goes good until I fall back in. Mentally I’m not alright. I can’t connect with other people so I just want to isolate once I graduate. Get away and get rich. Find myself. I don’t wanna end it anymore but I did before. I can’t. I have too much potential and too great of a purpose. I just can’t fight this anymore.
Bro, I’ve been exactly where you are. I know how crushing it feels—like you’re stuck in a loop you can’t break no matter how hard you try. I used to think I was weak or broken, but I realised I was just hurting and tired—and using porn to numb that pain. It feels like comfort, but it’s not. It’s a trap that creates even more discomfort and stress. What helped me was understanding that urges are like a telephone ring. They come and go. If you don’t respond to their call, they will leave. But if you do, they will fill you with shame and regret. I also found an accountability partner which I believe helped the most. Find someone you trust that can hold you accountable daily and support you through this. Could be a family member, a friend or even a therapist. Finally. Don’t isolate yourself. Let a few real people in. Start small. You’ve already taken the biggest step by admitting you need help. You’re not alone, and you can definitely climb out of this. I did, and you can too—one honest day at a time.