Better state of mind

The longest I’ve ever went is 8 months. That was around 3 years ago lol but I noticed whenever I WAS clean that everything just felt better. I hate the feeling I get when I relapse I just feel guilty and ashamed. Whenever I feel like “oh I’ll just do it one more time and I’ll try harder next time” I just remember that feeling of shame and guilt and focus on doing something else. Going on a walk, taking a drive to clear my head till it goes away, or turn to my Bible (my #1). I’m currently 2 weeks clean and im hoping to make it permanent I told myself if I make it to a year clean I would treat myself for making it that long lol and im looking forward to that. :) You guys got this!