Healing

All glory to God, for the first time ever I’ve really pushed through and gained a respectable go at this journey. I’ve had streaks over 30,50 days but never this clean. Haven’t peaked at a thing despite constant temptations, one thing I’ve realized is the temptations will never go away. We’ll be fighting these urges till the end of time, the more we focus on God and the more we say no to these urges the easier they are to brush away. This journey has not been easy, everyday is a constant fight even apart from the lust. The depression and anxiety and all around spiritual warfare truly doesn’t stop. It’s not easy but I know it will be worth it in time. I believe this is healing from the years of spiritual numbness and sin, it feels like it’s all coming to the surface. The journey has had its positives though. I’m growing with God a lot, truthful the most I’ve ever trusted in his plan and ways. Learning to appreciate the hard times and learning to dance in the rain instead of letting the storm over come me. Things I’ve been working towards in my life are starting to come together like never before. Not going to get into to much detail but I know this path is the truth and the freedom and peace will come in time. Stay true and stay faithful, if you’re not struggling you’re not growing.