My Battle

I’ve battled with porn addiction for a long time now and understood that it was a problem about 3 years ago. It ruined my last relationship as I checked out both physically and mentally overall moving to other issues. I’ve tried stopping multiple times and when I was single I went about 2 months without it and have done this multiple times but I always relapse. I know it’s like a drug when you relapse and my face like vibrates from the immense rush to my head. Overall in another relationship and was doing good for a long time with limited porn but the last few months it got really bad to the point I couldn’t get it up during sex. This led to a conversation and I told her that I had a problem with it. The look on her face said everything from disgusted to angry and upset. She told me she’d support me but if I couldn’t fight it then she’d have to leave. I’ve been battling the last few months and cut down a ton to twice max a week but this last 2 weeks were very stressful for me and relapsed into more. Yesterday I did it twice alone…. I’m going to stop and I know I can. I know this app can visually reinforce how long I haven’t watched porn as well as give me other resources to help when I’m thinking about it. It’s great to see others commenting their stories as it makes me feel less alone in this journey. I hope this helps others too.