I went for about a month of almost not having any strong urges , after started seeing an amazing girl. When the few thoughts came, I was able to easily ignored them by thinking of it as a demonic spirit trying to get me to stop progressing. Another i did was, when the thoughts would come, I would think about the girl i was seeing(not in an inappropriate or sexual way), I would just think about her as one of the reasons why I wanna stop, and it was working great. Barely got any struggle. Then I messed up with the girl, we ended it, then booommm, the urges all came back strong af. Now, keep relapsing or hooking up with girls. Now i feel like God opened that girl eyes so she could see I wasn’t the one for her since I keep disobeying God. Man for almost a month, i felt so amazing, so free of lust. Maybe it was all the prayers she was praying for me. Now IM back in that cage with all these lustfull thoughts, and can’t escape. Now I’m moving to a new place this Monday, the last thing I want is to have my own place alone all the time where you can relapse easily, or bring girls over easily, therefore I will pray my first day at that apartment, I will pray hard, play gospel music all the time I’m home or listen to sermons.
Brother please don't beat yourself into the ground. This life is full of enough suffering, be a friend to yourself and better yourself through these challenges. God allows these struggles to happen to us so that we will grow and learn to lean on him. Pick yourself up and get back on the right track, you can do this.
Praying for you also man. I know it’s not easy, but you’re not alone in this. Others have already paved a way for us to show us we can be free from this too, some way, some how. Remember that God already knows the relapses you’re gonna go through and the struggles you’re gonna face but Jesus already died for all that bro! It’s all covered, so repent and don’t waste a second. Get right back to Him. You have to allow yourself to feel his forgiveness and grace. Keep at it dude. You can do this
Thanks guys, i pray you all get this under control too.