Well, it was bound to happen.

Made it 17 days on this app before my first relapse on it last night. It's always unfair when I feel like I've been doing great and even though I had some urges throughout the day, I make it to bed without issue... only to awaken in the middle of the night with urges strong as ever and impossible to ignore. But I guess I'll be more proactive with the Panic button in the future. I'm ultimately not super torn up about it, even though I regret it, because it was a pretty long streak for me. So I know I'm capable of prolonging the time between episodes. I'm not giving up on myself now.