Am I alone?
Day 0
by Colton
21 upvotes
Before downloading this app, which if I’m being completely transparent I think I had the idea I might have an addiction, I was pushed very heavily toward it by my fiancé, she had found out I had been watching in secret and she screamed how much she hated me, a few other things, and put her hands on me slapping me so hard my ear was ringing. I don’t feel I have people to go to, and I’m not denying my wrong doing but was that okay? Coming from a ptsd background having to do with abuse I feel I could use some unbiased opinions on that especially. Also am I really just alone.
Her putting her hands on you is not okay, but at the same time it should not give you an excuse to victimize yourself and put her in the wrong. As someone who’s lost a significant other because of this addiction, where we both were convinced we’d end up happily married, etc etc., you absolutely cannot blame her for reacting the way she did. It’s how destructive this disease can be. She’s hurt. Again, her slapping you is still not cool, but you have to take accountability for how you’ve been hurting her and change otherwise you’ll end up losing her. As for loneliness, seek therapy if you haven’t already done so. Personally, I found Jesus and feel a lot less lonely because He is ALWAYS there when others are not.