Found this in my notes
Why I want to quit watching porn - when I was linking with my boyfriend for the first time since freshman year. He was touching me in places I didn’t get aroused from when I shouldve. For months I thought it was just him until I realized that I was the problem. It was because I had a low sex drive. The reason I had a low sex drive is because I’ve been watching too much porn. Hell, I wasn’t even able to touch myself at all and get turned on from it. I’ve been watching this for 6 years now and it’s been hard to stop. I’ve would’ve stopped way sooner if I knew that this was the cause of everything bad thATS happened but im too far gone. I wrote this May 3rd, 2021. My dad was alive still when I wrote this and it’s been 4 years and im only 25 days clean. Makes me think of all the years I wasted on this.
What’s important is that you’re doing it now, we can’t go back in time and that’s okay. Think about now and that will give you a brighter tomorrow. You got this